What Doesn't Kill You...

Today was the most frustrating day so far. I have finally made a final decision on whether or not I want more kids, and the answer is...NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! I should have known by the way my day started that it was going to be a doosy. Sam had me up at about six this morning (followed closely by Gyllian), and while I TRIED to snooze on the couch they had screaming contest that lasted all morning. I got up, made breakfast, and tried to get started on some house cleaning. I didn't even get a chance to work out because my old (and soon to be new again) neighbor called and asked if I could baby sit his sons (one is three, and the other is two). I said sure, what are friends for? The boys were angels. My children on the other hand were (how can I put this?) possessed!!! A few hours later, my friend came to pick up the boys (the easiest $30 I've ever made), and I went over to my friend, Susan's, house. Once again, the possessed children acted horrendously. I was sooooo embarassed! It didn't get any better for the rest of the night. I tried to be a nice mommy, let them have a living room picnic while we watched a movie. They were too busy wrestling each other to care. I just finished putting them down to bed, and I am utterly exhausted!!!!! Today was definitely a day that I could use Kevin's help. All I can do is hope tomorrow is better. The only good thing that happened today was that I got an email from Kevin. I miss him so much, but the emails help. They keep me focused and ready for all the crappy stuff that can happen. Now, if only I could email the kids to him...hmmmmm.